Shadowdance 031: Goodbye, and hello, as always…
“Come, my friends.
‘T is not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.
It may be that the gulfs will wash us down;
It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
And see the great Achilles, whom we knew.
Tho’ much is taken, much abides; and tho’
We are not now that strength which in old days
Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are,–
One equal temper of heroic hearts,
Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.”
– Alfred, Lord Tennyson
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Shadowdance 030: Dreamwalking
This episode is a talk Michelle gave at last year’s Kheperu Open House, on Dreamwalking. To delve further, check out her book, Psychic Dreamwalking: Explorations at the Edge of Self.
(Sure, not much of a set of show notes, but, well, those two sentences tells you what you need to know. 
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Shadowdance 029: Vampires
In this episode, Michelle and Jackie visit Chris’s backyard around midsummer and revisit and update the topic of vampires, which we last looked at in 2006. A lot has changed in the past three years, and the hosts look at every aspect of the community in this ninety-minute rollercoaster ride.
Links for this show:
- Voices of the Vampire Community (VVC)
- Atlanta Vampire Alliance
- Vampirism & Energy Work Research Study (Normal and Advanced)
- Joseph Laycock’s Vampires Today
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Shadowdance 028: Live at the Kheperu Open House
Michelle is back from her book and lecture tour, Chris has moved home from Los Angeles, and the 2009 House Kheperu Open House gave us the perfect opportunity to sit and take questions from our friends. What following is 79 minutes of rambling goodness which we hope you’ll enjoy.
Links for this show:
- Jackie Williams’ Spiral Fire Studio, home of the Watcher Angel Tarot project
- Convocation, next year with added Tower goodness.
- The Kherete project, Open Source Kheprianism
- The Paranormal Research Society and Paranormal State
- Michelle’s LiveJournal
- Chris’s LiveJournal
- Chris’s Twitter Zombie Theatre
(Note from Chris: I’m going to start posting to my LJ account again, since it seems that most of you folks have journals there. Please friend me up…I’m not sure I can find everyone on my own!)
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Shadowdance 0027: Left vs. Right Hand Path
Michelle and Chris wring time from their schedules to take on the oft requested topic of the Left Hand Path vs. the Right Hand Path. They discuss the history of the terms, how they have changed over time, and what they mean to use today.
Links of Interest:
- Wikipedia entry on the Paths
- http://www.swamij.com/tantra.htm
- http://apodion.com/vad/article.php?id=20&aid=157
- http://www.sacredsexuality.us/history/index.html
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http://www.dpjs.co.uk/lefthandpath.html (this one’s a little all over the place, but it gives a nice, short, overview of how the phrase “Left Hand Path” entered the west)
- Demons of the Flesh: The Complete Guide to Left-Hand Path Sex Magic by Nikolas and Zeena Schreck
- The Yoga of Power: Tantra, Shakti, and the Secret Way by Julius Evola,
- The Serpent Power: The Secrets of Tantric and Shaktic Yoga by Arthur Avalon (Sir John Woodroffe).
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Skepticism, Spirituality, and Doubt
(an essay by Chris Miller, originally posted on Unquiet Desperation)
As I said in a previous essay, I’ve been thinking a lot about the stories we tell ourselves. Along with that, I’ve been considering the way we see other people’s stories. How we watch then, listen to them, and if they have something we feel we need, how we try to adapt their stories to fit into our own.
This is a useful exercise. When we see a person’s life through the lens of history, such as a personal hero from the past, we do not see all their failings, all their personal struggles. We see an idealized version of them, and we take the qualities of their life that we seek to emulate and attempt to graft them on to our own psyches. We learn and grow this way, trying on stories as we would garments, and when they do not suit us, casting them off.
These days, we live in an information-rich climate. The stories surrounding us, bombarding us at times, all seem to carry something that we’d like to make part of ourselves. I’ve found this to be especially true with the people I’ve met through my work in the podcasting community, where tales of individual drive, perseverance, and passion have turned normally shy people into the writers, musicians, and broadcasters we know and love. There’s much that’s worthy of being emulated there.
There are times that we select beliefs or qualities that make sense to us, only to have them cause dissonance with other, more deeply-rooted attitudes. In my life, that’s been Skepticism vs. Spirituality.
To explain: I know a number of atheists and skeptics. I’ve had a number of discussions with them, and to a great degree, their arguments make a great deal of logical sense to me. My own belief in a God (capital G) has been wavering for years now, and as I make my professional life in a world of logic, the arguments put forward by my skeptic friends are appealing to me. Facts make sense, and believing in things you cannot prove makes none.
However, on a deeper level, my inner life has always been one of mysticism, symbol, and faith. I was raised Catholic, and when I hit the point in my life when I wanted to break out of the Church, I gravitated toward other mystical beliefs: neopaganism and the occult being a major part of that. In retrospect, I can see that I moving from one ritual-based practice to another because it was the motion and poetry of the rituals that I fell in love with, not the actual theology.
In the past three years, these two systems have been causing me some serious internal dissonance. In trying to find a way to make these things work together, I’ve worked myself into a cycle of doubt that has been crippling. One side, the logical side, tells me that all my beliefs that I cannot prove with facts are bollocks, and the other side reminds me that humans work on a deeper level than mere logic, and that Significance is not fact-based, but instinctual and symbolic. It’s a battle that is deeply troubling.
The effect of all of this is that, when I take the skeptical path, I tend to be bitter and angry, and when I take the spiritual, I’m insecure and full of doubt. I do not like the way my life tastes when I am purely skeptical, but I worry that I will float away into a never-neverland if the spiritual should take over.
I do not know where the balance point in my own life lies, but I’m reasonably certain that I’m not the only person fighting this internal fight. If you are one of those people with this same inner turmoil, how do you balance it? What beliefs have influenced you, shown you where your strength lies, and how did you come to your decision?
Shadowdance 026: Samhain
Our erstwhile hosts find time between travels, TV shows, and other travails to talk about everyone’s favorite holiday: Samhain. It’s a full length, uber-ramble over the river and through the haunted wood to the Land of the Dead.
Oh, and Wolverine came along, as you can see from the picture.
Twas the night before Samhain and all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, except for my spouse.
The incense, it burned in our cauldron so black,
For Witchcraft and Magick we’d a wonderful knack.
The circle was drawn with the athame of power,
The guardians were called to each quarter tower.
The Lord and Lady attended our rite,
In wonder and glory and power and might.
The dearly departed came as our guest,
To live once again, after their rest.
We bid them goodbye with a tear in our eye,
Such a lovely presence of loved ones so nigh.
The candles danced in the flickering light,
With the Great Rite we bid them all a good night.
The guardians, thanked, have all sped away,
The Lord and Lady, thanked for the day.
The night before Samhain, Gods bless this house,
A circle of wonder ’round me and my spouse.
– Author Unknown
Happy Samhain to all, and to all a Good Night! 
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Shadowdance 025: Teaching, Teachers, and Being Self-Taught
Thanks so much for the patience, everyone! Chris is finally settled in Los Angeles, so the show will go on!
In this episode, we took two minis and combined them into a 15 minute show, with a little help from Rob Balder for the interstitial music. You’ll see what we mean.
Enjoy, and we’ll be back soon with a real, honest-to-gods long-form show.
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Shadowdance 24: Michelle Interviews Chris
Because we’ve had some requests for more information on Chris, Michelle sat down and interviewed him over coffee one night not so long ago.
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Shadowdance Mini 001: Where to Start?
One of our listeners sent in a note, requesting a show on where to begin:
I was hoping that you could do a show for people new to this. I have just started listening to your podcast and I love it. I have been researching with limited resources. I just was wondering if you had any advice for people who have started to research.
Your wish is our command. Enjoy!
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